So basically I am a mess. I stew and stew because I feel trapped. Trapped because I am not out in the real would working toward my future goals and the career path i wish to take. I am sick of this strict routine of waking up, going to school, being subject to idiotic people (truly sick of this), being subject to the idiotic narrow-minds of these people, treated as inferiors by a mentor (teacher), restricted by walls and fences, and the general tedious transportation to and from school.
I really have every right to feel trapped and immobile...but I am by nature open-minded and creative so I am saying goodbye to this view and I am saying hello to new ways of thinking. Deep down I know this will prove to get me through the year with fewer mental breakdowns.
Now now...before you think my statement in my first paragraph was oh so "black and white" - Let me remind you I am not the type of student to stress over my ENTER. I know it is not the end of my life. I know - I am 100% certain of this actually; my ENTER score will not define any part of my life. My goals are not ruled by a ratio or number. My future and goals are ruled by my own self determination to achieve these goals by means of anything physically and mentally possible and demanding.
One of my goals and aspirations is to become a screen-writer. I do not mind what I gain experience in writing for - either it be film, television, theatre or even Video gaming (my partner would love this especially *rolls eyes*). At current I have a few ideas for a film script. I am working on developing these ideas. THIS is what i find most invigorating - being able to have some sort of control of my goals prior to my completion of VCE.
It motivates me in everything I do. When you have a passion and you live by it, life as an 18 year old is generally made more worthwhile. I also know to achieve what I both desire and crave will call for hard work and determination. Realistically, when one is driven by a passion like myself - anything is within their grasp.
(I also realise how corny and cliche that last sentence sounded...my bad :p)
Sweet Dreams.xox
3 comments:
damn you write so coherently (and must i say, not very cliche at all!) - a pleasure to read (i could probably learn something from you)!
we believe in you m. I know you will achieve your dreams.
(now that's cliche haha)
Why thank you for your very much appreciated comments :D
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