Its been over a month and guess what....

...I GRADUATED!!!

Yes, you read correctly - I have graduated from Sacred Heart Girls' College. IT is now time for extreme focus and study...err yes!

Pictorials for you my followers =]

Karen my bus buddy!!



My very much loved Literature class 09'!



...and mimskee...thanks for the laughs

Day #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10

Through days 4-8 i was still noticing some minor break-outs but apparently this is what it is suppose to do. By day 9 my skin was noticeably clearing.

Today i have little minor blemishes and my skin is healing! I am happy with these results thus far.

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Sorry i did not post day-by-day i have been extremely busy - 4 SACs last week!

Marilyn. xoxo

Day #3

Today i noticed A LOT of the redness had gone. I don't know if it because i am ill/recovering or if it is Proactiv, but my complexion has become rather pale. My skin still feels smooth after application and through-out the day :)

peace.

Bypass? Can I pass?

I was doing my Literature homework and studying the text "Bypass - the story of a road". The title of the text speaks for itself. I was reading a particular chapter and noticed the author uses this whole chapter as a history lesson. It is bland and boring. The author, Michael McGirr, should have taken into consideration that this chapter is difficult to get through by the reader especially at the start of the book.

Though - when i look back at the entire book i realise this book is merely a history lesson about the Hume highway and the creation of towns in Victoria and New South Wales.

Peace.xox

Day #2

Today after application of the cleanser, toner, treatment and moisturiser my skin is again feeling soft. When i woke up this morning i noticed my skin was tighter and the redness of my blemishes had decreased.

Being Proactiv.

In my teen years I have found my skin to be subject to my moody and hormonal states. As you all probably know - we have our good skin days and our absolute horrible ones. At current, I am 18 years old, stressed out about trivial school issues (the work-load and things that are out of my control), not being able to see my close friends or boyfriend as much, my general health and every little challenge I am faced through-out the day. It was like they were suppressed and decided it was way too much for them to handle - so they exploded! On my face! Yes I have broken out; let me tell you it is horrible.

Over the previous weekend I visited my long-term-side-kick and best friend - Christina. She too has faced many break-outs over the years and informed me that a month ago she decided to invest in and try-out the acne solution - Proactiv. She was quick to state the result of using it for the past month - "It is amazing; the first week my skin just broke out but after that week it just improved and improved and i have not had a break-out since. My skin feels really nice". She also mentioned that although it is a solution which works - it drys out your skin. I fully understood what she was saying. Finally, she advised that i use it.

I considered it. Though a side of me was totally against it. If you are not aware I am a very strong believer of natural products/medicine. I detest western medicine. I believe it is made to make the consumer dependent on the product and therefore continuously buy the said product. Anyway - I was too curious and decided to 'invest' and try out the Proactiv treatment.

I bought the product from an Internet store a few days ago and promptly received it this morning. After much analysis of the warnings, ingredients and directions of use- I made a decision to only use the treatment once daily (at night)-even though it suggests 2 times daily. This decision was made because I feel my skin would become insanely dry -I have sensitive skin. This is another issue I faced before buying the product - my sensitive skin. However I have now taken the risk and I am prepared to see how my skin reacts with this product.

I will blog daily and comment on my skin and how the product affects it and If their are any visible results.

Day 1:
I was very cautious of how much product I applied to my face. After application my skin feels very smooth.

What is the...

time.

It is our ruler
We cannot escape it
We wish for it to hasten
At times for it to remain
slowly the four moods evolve
And the air seems much lighter
from the country we see
much brighter than rush
by the metro racing life
what is life without time

I did not intend this on being a poem...it just came out like this.

A Peaceful Longing

Before you all go night-nights i will leave you with a beautiful yet conflicting poem.

BRIGHT STAR, WOULD I WERE STEDFAST

By John Keats

Bright star, would I were stedfast as thou art---
Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night
And watching, with eternal lids apart,
Like nature's patient, sleepless Eremite,
The moving waters at their priestlike task
Of pure ablution round earth's human shores,
Or gazing on the new soft-fallen mask
Of snow upon the mountains and the moors---
No---yet still stedfast, still unchangeable,
Pillowed upon my fair love's ripening breast,
To feel for ever its soft fall and swell,
Awake for ever in a sweet unrest,
Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,
And so live ever---or else swoon in death.

1819

Home and Away; it should just go away

It is undeniable that Home and Away is a huge part of Australian Television and Broadcasting History. It is where we have all watched many young and talented, and not so talented actors grow and develop- fuelling our country with entertainment.

Wait...just wait a minute - i said entertainment? Hardly. The screenwriters seriously need some inspiration! The story lines are shocking. Someone is always getting married...and its always ending in disaster! Also, someone is always randomly dieing of cancer! Seriously now - how cliche and predictable! We need some originality brought to our free-TV screens.

It is not only some Australian TV shows though - The Bold and the Beautiful; one of America's most notorious soup operas is also guilty of being extremely repetitive and unoriginal. Not only is B&B repetitive in terms of story-line and ideas - the same people are always re-marrying - to the same people too! What i do not understand though, is how a leading female character can marry her daughters ex-husband and then divorce him...its absurd!

Regardless, the shows still appear to be popular with the general public - i guess they are into crappy story-lines. Not to worries i have my books, law & order, cold case and generally sbs and abc.

muahahaha *wishes she could write for an awesome show *

ciao.

Inspiriation for this post: Veronica.

Television Personalities. They are always big; either directly or indirectly. Ultimately, we are either going to loathe or love them. It has come to my attention that it is not only myself and my partner, Cary, whom detest the reality TV host, Peter Everett; others also share this view.

Why is it that he frustrates me so much though? To be honest this question was a waste of space and time - Oh how fitting, Peter himself is reflected by this (wait...too harsh). Look, i will just rant now about why I do not like him - in a completely irrational fashion.

Why I do NOT like Peter Everett:

- His face is too shiny
- His voice is too high pitched and nasal sounding
- He stands too close to people
- Touches complete strangers on national TV in totally inappropriate ways
- He is a host of a cooking show, yet it seems he fails to know anything about cookery
- He annoys and clearly irritates the contestants on the show
- He makes the viewer feel awkward when watching the show
- He seems fake
- I generally just want to punch him in the face

Now i hope you see why he is a waste of space on national television.



Thank you and good night.xox

Looking past the Glass Wall

So basically I am a mess. I stew and stew because I feel trapped. Trapped because I am not out in the real would working toward my future goals and the career path i wish to take. I am sick of this strict routine of waking up, going to school, being subject to idiotic people (truly sick of this), being subject to the idiotic narrow-minds of these people, treated as inferiors by a mentor (teacher), restricted by walls and fences, and the general tedious transportation to and from school.

I really have every right to feel trapped and immobile...but I am by nature open-minded and creative so I am saying goodbye to this view and I am saying hello to new ways of thinking. Deep down I know this will prove to get me through the year with fewer mental breakdowns.

Now now...before you think my statement in my first paragraph was oh so "black and white" - Let me remind you I am not the type of student to stress over my ENTER. I know it is not the end of my life. I know - I am 100% certain of this actually; my ENTER score will not define any part of my life. My goals are not ruled by a ratio or number. My future and goals are ruled by my own self determination to achieve these goals by means of anything physically and mentally possible and demanding.

One of my goals and aspirations is to become a screen-writer. I do not mind what I gain experience in writing for - either it be film, television, theatre or even Video gaming (my partner would love this especially *rolls eyes*). At current I have a few ideas for a film script. I am working on developing these ideas. THIS is what i find most invigorating - being able to have some sort of control of my goals prior to my completion of VCE.

It motivates me in everything I do. When you have a passion and you live by it, life as an 18 year old is generally made more worthwhile. I also know to achieve what I both desire and crave will call for hard work and determination. Realistically, when one is driven by a passion like myself - anything is within their grasp.

(I also realise how corny and cliche that last sentence sounded...my bad :p)

Sweet Dreams.xox

life? Reading?

So. I recently bought a book which is part of an anthology i am reading. I have been lazy, no not lazy - EXTREMELY PREOCUPIED WITH SCHOOL - and was yet to read it. I picked it up this morning on the bus...and i must confess it has been difficult to put down. It makes me happy. Maybe this is why I have been so crazy/erratic - I need to just get away from this world, time and place. I think i should take the time to read more...like i use to. I will possibly find a difference in my moods. Saying this i will not disregard to obvious physical activity and exercise needed to function in a sane manner.

It has been a pleasure. Good night.

Peace. Keep it real - Marilyn.xox

Must Reads for YA Girls

I am now leaving my teen years behind and feel i should leave behind these awesome teen reads :)

In no particular order:

- Twilight [Stephenie Meyer]

- New Moon [Stephenie Meyer]

- Eclipse [Stephenie Meyer]

- Breaking Dawn [Stephenie Meyer]

- The Host [Stephenie Meyer]

- A Certain Slant of Light [Laura Whitcomb]

- Marked (A House of Night novel) [P.C and Kristen Cast]

- Betrayed (A House of Night novel) [P.C and Kristen Cast]

- Chosen (A House of Night novel) [P.C and Kristen Cast]

- Untamed (A House of Night novel) [P.C and Kristen Cast]

- Hunted (A House of Night novel) [P.C and Kristen Cast] - out Autum 2009

- Blue Bloods [Melissa De La Cruz]

- Masquerade (A Blue Bloods novel) [Melissa De La Cruz]

- Revelations (A Blue Bloods novel) [Melissa De La Cruz]

- Vampire Academy [Richelle Mead]

- Frostbite (Vampire Academy series) [Richelle Mead]

- Shaddow Kiss (Vampire Academy series) [Richelle Mead]

- I'd Tell You I Love You but then I'd Have to Kill You (Gallahger Girls) [Ally Carter]

- Cross My Heart and Hope to Spy (Gallahger Girls) [Ally Carter]

- Don't Judge a Girl by her Cover (Gallahger Girls) [Ally Carter] - out June 2009

- City of Bones (The Mortal Instruments - book one) [Cassandra Clare]

- City of Ashes (The Mortal Instrument - book two) [Cassandra Clare]

- City of Glass (The mortal Instruments - book three) [Cassandra Clare] - out March 2009

- Wicked Lovely [Melissa Marr]

- Ink Exchange [Melissa Marr]

- Fragile Eternity [Melissa Marr] - out April 2009

- The Au Pairs [Melissa De La Cruz]

- Skinny Dipping (Au Pairs) [Melissa De La Cruz]

- Sun-Kissed (Au Pairs) [Melissa De La Cruz]

- Crazy Hot (Au Pairs) [Melissa De La Cruz]

- Looking for Alibrandi [Melina Marchetta]

- Pride and Prejudice [Jane Austen]

- When Lightening Strikes (1800-Where-R-You) [Meg Cabot]

- Code Name Cassandra (1800-Where-R-You) [Meg Cabot]

- Safe House (1800-Where-R-You) [Meg Cabot]

- Sanctuary (1800-Where-R-You) [Meg Cabot]

- Missing You (1800-Where-R-You) [Meg Cabot]

- The Mediator Series (total 6 books) [Meg Cabot]

- All American Girl [Meg Cabot]

- Revealers [Amanda Marrone]

- Butterflies [Susanne Gervay]

The Battle. The Irony.

Females' vs. Males'?
Why is it that a certain group of females strive for such command over males? They argue that females are not treated equally by society. A fair argument, though woman are considerably equal in western countries and have the same rights as men. In these parts of the world major Feminist groups like Feminist Campus are demanding for such small-scale materialistic rights. For example, a feminist group in America is demanding that the cost of the pill and other female contraceptives is lowered. Why should there be a priority on female contraceptives and not male contraceptives or other medication for males? Females are such victims. In this case, females are not the victim - the group is simply victimising them in order to gain unrealistic rights or privileges from greater society and/or the Government.
Meanwhile, the same feminist group is fighting in Africa for more plausible cases. Genital mutilation is used on female slaves within Africa for cultural reasons (non-medical). As an extreme punishment. The female endures severe pain for months after the initial slashing; usually preformed in a careless manner. This is something which can be agreed to be unjust. Though what I find infuriating is that this certain issue is highlighted above the other scandalous doings in Africa. Men are raped daily - young pre-adolescent boys endure sexual harassment and brutal physical abuse. No, don't worry males are tough; they can handle anything. Rather obtuse!
Yes, historically females were subject to a dense patriarchal society - they still are subject to a patriarchal society, though it is one which has been altered a great deal. Western societies are free and live with equal rights; in spite of this, there are under-lying unjustified happenings which females still face - E.g. the glass ceiling.
My stance - feminists are hypocrites who are proud and ignorant. They seemingly refuse to acknowledge struggles of the male sex and instead of working towards equality in society they are merely working (hoping) for a matriarchal society.

A Poem.

A Path.

Enclosed in so much wrath
I walked down this path
And felt the slight chill
Rain down the window seal
Feeling the rigid road bellow
Wanting my pretty poignant pillow